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| As fucked up as it sounds, I believe to this human race they believe that Life or even Love is a Game; a give and take if you will. In my perspective I feel that life has two people in it, the people that love and the people that hate. The people that love will always respect and love you, the people that don't well, fuck'em.
I hate when people give you a false imagine too. Not just about themselves but in their day to day life. It is also sad that one has traits of a person that they dislike. What the fuck is that shit? I don't know I don't understand. All I feel is betrayal and anger at this moment in time. Fuck you and what you tell me and what you say. I don't believe a motherfuckin' word you say, unless I see the changes, actions and hardcore facts of it. That's how I am if you can't work with me and be honest with me, then this just can't work. The end is near...
~Sparky~ | | |
| Eye on the Universe By: Donna Lynn Hudgins From whence we rode the darkened horse we among the living we feign the price of too long a wait and lips breathe the souls' great truth. From among the living we count the moments we rein in the desire forlorn accounting not the length of minutes lost-- the echo of tomorrow is upon us. I tear through the veil of present I lift the shadow of the past my soul is weary so of both and dreams the dream of casting off to All. Tempered as I am by Patience's fair hand it still is a hourney sometimes undone. What lifts the weary from this place is the prater answered in silence unbidden from above. Holy space Holy emptiness speak to me hold me Love me more for I cannot wait for the knowing of Your Face. Speak in your magnificent silence speak with your breathtaking beauty lay your Presence upon me as the finest silk drawn and I will sleep my soul contented forevermore in eternity's 'wakening.
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| So this is the end of the world as we know it. Atleast in the sense of people and their negative actions, feelings and thoughts upon each other. Yes, even the physical Mother Earth is certainly feeling this change of growing and intense negative energy. Hence the climate change happening lately. I understand humans are humans and we feel things, but it is how you channel that energy changes everything about the outcome. Lately, I've been working on feeling my feelings, voicing them, mediating and then letting go of whatever seems to be upsetting me. It is not an easy task but without the releasement of that energy, I myself would be locked into a mode and hang on to that garbage. It has been hard due to my aggitation of this human race. I try not to get upset by it too much, but it is hard since this human race, could be such a loving, embracive and understanding race. I notice people hold alot of expectations towards one another. Yes, I am guitly of holding one high expectation and that is respect. I expect respect since I give it to people. Apparently that seems to be looked down upon. I don't understand.  Oh, Blessed Mother, Help us! Help me! Mother, give me a healing blessing today.
I need it.
Blessed Be! | | |
| So I know it has been awhile and that is why I'm writing this now. A long while, over a year while. Alot of things has gone down. Rehab. which actually I greatly needed, enjoyed and it changed my life for the better. SO much better. I feel reborn. Like it was my second chance in this lifetime to make a difference for the world and for myself. I want to find myself. My soul is old, I feel it and I know it is. It is at its last couple lives left. So i feel that Ive cum to the conclucion that I, this is called Felicia, is going to persue my life goal of giving and finding the answers to life, to experience it like no one has done before. To travel, work, live, laugh, cry, scream, love, and smile! I don't want to be with anyone. Just me. Yes, I want lovers along the way that I will always be in touch with. I know there are still people like that out there. I know I will uphold my half of the deal on that. I want to take care of my physical body has well. Have it fit, fresh, active and healthy. So that my soul can have a place to stay awhile on Mother Isis' Home called Earth. Today was an interesting one. I had all sorts of emotions. I experienced things and it was a simple day too. Incredible how a human feelings will have nothing to do with one's surroundings. Like i could be in the happiet of places and still feel shitty. Imagine that. I learned things. I took care of myself and others. A wonderful feelings. I was productive, yet, I relaxed too. A wonderful early fall day if you ask me. I believe i will continue to blog on here often now. I missed doing this.
Namaste,
Felicia | | |
| So, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I got a tattoo yesterday and I thought of alot of things while Shawn was working on me. I got the Chinese Symbol for the Snake. It looks great. Black with bright green outlining it. Anyways, I've been doing alot of thinking about everything. Love, life, me, others, etc. I love thinking sometimes especially when its positive thinking which it has been lately since I've had my experiences from this past weekend and have been back on meds. I've been doing alot of "cleaning house" if you will. I've been bettering myself. Reading more, writing more, loving more...just being happy. And knowing what love is and how it feels. It's a good feeling, man.
So now, I'm off. I'm gonna cook some supper. Hungry, man. Stir-fry, baby! =)
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